being broken is a beautiful thing

I wish these tears were for joy
But I know deep down inside
That my heart is breaking

I force a huge congratulations
A smile and a hug
But all I want is to hold on forever

I know you’ll have fun
And experience more life
But all I can think of is how mine is ending

I’m sorry I can’t be happy
I’m sorry I can’t pretend
I never saw us coming to this end

I think you’ll forget me
I think you’ll move on
And I’ve tried so hard to keep this

I don’t want to think about it
I don’t want to talk about it
But it still keeps me awake all night

This is all you dream of
This is all you want
And I’m sorry I can’t support you

I’m trying to be happy for you
I’m trying to smile
But all I can think of …

All I can think of …

You’re leaving me.